A few weeks ago I learned why we don’t often visit Bruce at work. Taking all four boys to eat lunch with Bruce to celebrate Quade’s 7 1/2 birthday and Knox’s 1st birthday was two bananas shy of a fruit basket.
Watts greeted Bruce’s employees by lifting up his shirt. Price proceeded to pour salt & pepper out on to the table. Knox celebrated his birthday rightly by dropping his glass bottle on the floor and smashing it to pieces (like a Greek wedding celebration…opah!).
I had a ticket to attend dotMOM, a mom conference, that weekend. The conference actually started around the same time my boys were running circles around a lunchroom table. But I chose to skip the first keynote session with Angie Smith (one of my faves) and fulfill my motherly birthday duties.
Later that night I finally arrived at dotMOM just as Travis Cottrell began leading worship (one of my highlights by the way). Unlike Angie Smith, a name I was quite familiar with, I had never heard of the evening keynote speaker before.
Apparently, John Croyle, used to play football at Alabama. The first question in my head was, “What could an ex-football player teach me about motherhood?” (arrogant much, Heather?).
Then as Big Mama & Boo Mama introduced John and gave his bio, I had the following inner monologue: “How could his oldest child be 57, when that’s about how old he looks? Did I just hear him say he has 26 children in college? And excuse me, how many total children does he have? over 1800?”
Then John Croyle explained he owns a ranch in Alabama for children who have been orphaned, neglected or abused (ohhhh). A ranch he started instead of pursuing a professional football career (maybe I judged him a little prematurely). He shows these children a love they’ve never known and gives them a hand up to a better life. When they arrive at the ranch John tells them four simple truths:
- I love you.
- I will never lie to you.
- I will stick with you till you are grown.
- There are boundaries. Don’t cross them.
How awesome are those?
This ex-football player really knocked this momma over the head with truth when he shared the ONE question he believes shapes every parent’s actions.
You ready? Here it is:
“What are you afraid of for your children?”
Stop and think about it. What are you afraid of?
While I sat in the large conference room my immediate answer was: I’m afraid of what people think about my boys. I’m afraid of them getting permanently hurt. I’m afraid of messing them up. I’m afraid they won’t pursue God as adults.
John Croyle argues, “If you don’t get control of your fear, your fear will conquer you. If you are afraid of your children not measuring up. Let that go because it’s not your line to draw. God’s got His line of what He wants your kids to be.”
John’s words lingered in my mind for days after…”What am I afraid of for my children?”. Taking note of my behavior, in light of my fears, I realized my actions often didn’t show my true desire to love, cherish and nurture my boys…for instance:
- Getting upset that toys were left out–>fearful they will become adult slobs & fearful I’m not a good wife if I don’t keep the house clean.
- Losing my temper because one brother hurts another brother (again)–> fearful there is more evil than good in their hearts.
- Becoming Impatient when I have to keep nagging them to get ready to go–> fearful of how it looks when we are consistently late.
- Embarrassed and then controlling when the boys act a little “wild” in public–> fearful others will think I’m a bad mom.
Yes, I want to train my boys to have good habits…but training in grace (not fear). Yes, I want to help them love one another…but by showing them gentle love. Yes, we need to be on time to commitments…but not because we need to impress others. Yes, we need to have self-control out in public…but not because we are consumed with man’s approval.
John’s right. “Guilt & fear are Satan’s biggest weapons.” Fear is robbing me the joy of mothering these precious boys. Because when I look back at the pictures above I see their smiles and realize they weren’t being “bad”… just being boys…in an office cafeteria.
Over and over in the Bible we read, “Do not fear”. Do. not. fear. “There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus.” It all comes down to John’s last bold statement:
“You are a daughter of a King. Act like it!” -John Croyle
I’m already loved by the King of the Universe. Time to put on that big girl tiara and start believing it.
How do you manage your fears? Do you have Scripture memorized? Do you rationalize why your fear is unrealistic? Do you realize how much you are loved already?
Let’s tackle our fears ladies! for the children.
Looooved today’s post… it’s the first thing I read this morning when I woke up and looked at my phone. Good stuff. btw, I ordered the book recommended. The Mission of Motherhood…. just gave you props yesterday on my blog. 😉
thanks friend! You are too kind. I hope you enjoy Mission of Motherhood…it changed my view of the whole journey. (pst…thanks for sharing on your blog).
Great post at the perfect timing! Fear has consumed me lately (mostly over school decisions) and EVERYTHING you said about being fearful over not being a good wife, fearful over how my kids turn out, fearful over what others think….rings TRUE in my heart. Through many verses and circumstances, the Lord laid something on my heart at the beginning of 2013 – “Ashley, I want you to replace fear with faith this year” – and I never imagined how many opportunities He would give me to practice that! Thanks for a post that I needed to read TODAY!
Oh yes after writing it I realized it was back to parenting in fear or parenting with faith. Thankful He could use what He is teaching me to minister to you. (miss ya!)
Chills on this one, Heather. Chills. I have never heard of John Croyle, but wow, wise man, and those are words I need to hear again and again. Thanks for sharing.
He was so awesome Erika…blunt truth. How can you not hang on his every word knowing how many children he has helped walk into adulthood? So wise.
Love this!!!!! Needed to hear it! What an eye opener. Thank you for always sharing
Definitely good stuff!!
Great recap, Heather! I too was surprised how much I learned from John’s talk.
Do you know if there’s any way to get the talks of this conference on audio?
thanks debra! I went to the website: http://www.lifeway.com/n/Product-Family/dotMom?type=events&intcmp=iTeam3-MTX-dotmom-search-20120501 and didn’t see any mention of tapes available. Sorry!! Definitely plan on going next year. It was great!
Bummer. Thanks for checking anyway!
This is amazing. I fear and worry about everything but something about hearing some of these things really opened my eyes that God is in control and as I still need to parent I can also relax knowing that God is watching over my children as well. Thank you for sharing this was so awesome.